Yesterday, I couldn’t sleep out of anxiety.
Going through the same list I always complain about: I don’t like my job and its hours. I deal with family drama. My sleep cycle is messed up.
The main solution to my problems is a better job. I get a better job, with better pay, then all I have to do is move out. Once I move out, I can workout anytime I feel like and maybe even have some space to myself to rewire my crazy sleeping pattern.
But would that be possible? When I got back to the US and got stuck due to COVID, my parents told me to never teach English again. I am to work a real corporate job and move up the ladder to become supervisor, manager, or whatever. No more teaching English.
For the longest time, I applied to many other positions from New York to Taipei to see if they can hire me. No go, no dice. I might get an email saying, “Thank you very much and good luck with your job hunt” but that was about it.
A few weeks ago, I was resigned that the only way I can move out is to work as an English teacher in Asia. Don’t get me wrong, I love the work and I sure as hell enjoy it, but job growth is limited and very few can retire working as one if one does it as a career.
While I was willing to go back to English teaching, I was wondering if that’s all I can do with my life. Will I not be able to do anything else? Will I not be able to even have my own home, so to speak?
I decided to go on Linkedin and looked at the same jobs and companies I used to apply. Then three thoughts came into my mind:
From Og Mandino’s The Greatest Salesman in the World, “I will persist until I succeed.”
From the first Billy Jack film, The Born Losers, well . . . “I am born to lose.”
From my mind, “If I apply to become company president, the worst that will happen is that my resume will get laughed at. So what the hell!”
There is this one company based in Bangkok I have been trying to apply for about a year and a half. Every time I applied for a position I thought I would excel at, I would get rejection after rejection. That night, I decided to apply to almost every open position I saw on Linkedin. I might have even applied for a senior management position which I had no business applying for!
Tonight, I was checking my email before I sleep and I got an email from the company. I was expecting the usual “Thank you for applying and have a nice day” type of drivel.
Instead, I got an email from the company saying they are interested taking the next step in my application!
I still cannot believe my eyes. I am amazed at how far I went with this throwing caution to the wind approach. Basically, I have to take an assessment test before I get an interview. I am hoping that I will pass for the round. Soon enough, I hope I can get that job and move to Bangkok.
Seriously guys, this is a dream job for me and I never expected that I would be able to take the next step. I hope it won’t be my last.
If it is my last, though, I will still be happy. To me this is a sign that things are looking up and that if I can get this far in the application process of this company, I might be able to get farther in an another one.